My husband and I got married a little over 6 years ago. At that time I wasn't attending church at all for about 2 years. I was doing just about everything I shouldn't have been doing at that time. But when we became pregnant with our now oldest daughter I decided that I couldn't imagine raising my child without the gospel. I knew that no matter what I* had done I wanted her to know the truth and know her Heavenly Father. So after we got married I started the road back to Christ. I started coming to church again. It was difficult when all the girls I knew were asking me why I could no longer come to Young Women's with them. I had to explain the I had to go to Relief Society now because I was married and going to be a mother.
I talked with the bishop and repented. It was very hard but I knew it was what I had to do. I am so grateful for the atonement and for the opportunity to be forgiven.
Well I started coming regularly and got to where I really wanted an eternal family. I started pestering my hubby to come with me and to listen to the missionaries. He listened only to please me but it took over six months before he agreed to be baptised. I am so thankful to those wonderful sister missionaries (Sister Abel & Sister Corbett) for their patients and kindness to him.
So he was baptised and was coming to church and was a strong faithful member. He was studying everyday and was talking to everyone he met about the gospel(even if they really didn't want to hear it).
That lasted about 8 months and he fell away and was doing things that weren't right and sadly enough I followed him on some of it. We were inactive for a short while. I used to say it was because my back was bad ( ended up having back surgery at 17) but the truth was we were doing things I knew were wrong. We came back and repented. I have never stopped since that time.
We were sealed in the temple in 2006 and I couldn't even begin to describe my joy at having an eternal family! We were sealed to our two little girls and any children we had after that time would be sealed to us automatically.
About two weeks after we were sealed my husband stopped coming to church. I only ever got the reason of, "I just don't want to" or "I don't believe it." He said he enjoyed the temple and wanted to go often when we were there. I do not know what caused him to stop coming but he only came like 3 or 4 times at most in the last two years. I think it was a lot of responsibility and he didn't want to do it.
He started coming back in September and has only missed one Sunday since coming back. The change of heart came about because our second son(child #4) was born at the end of June and he would be the only child of ours he wouldn't have blessed since he was baptized. It is very important to him now and he seems to be truly happy coming back. He said that yesterday during PH he actually felt the brotherhood he had longed for all along.
I am so happy to see him coming back and taking care of our family. I am so excited but on the other hand I am totally terrified he will stop coming again and it will break my heart once more. Be that as it may, I have made a promise to my self that I will not under any circumstance push him to go no matter how bad I want him to be there. I know it has to be his choice and not a feeling of being obligated to go. No matter weather he continues to go or not I will never Father willing stop coming to church and lose my eternal faith in Heavenly Father.
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